Question ID: #6018
Question: Extreme waswasah and ocd
When I do taubah or do anything through dua my mind makes oaths and then I forget whether I say it verbally or not . But my mind says that you say it varbally 100% but I know that when I was doing taubah how can I make oath. Is this a kind of waswasa . Do I need to pay kaffarah ? I am so depressed that I want to suicide or leave islam . I know that certainty is not affected by doubt . But I don't know whether I am certain or not . Please help me and write in detailed in this regard. I am very depressed.... I am not able to concentrate on studies 😭😭.
I sing a music and then I suddenly stops and make a taubah but my mind says I am swearing not to do it again but I not said It verbally and immediately stops and then open my mouth and wait 2sec and complete the taubah . My mind says that you made an oath in 2 sec but I did not hear any sound but my mind says you are 100% surely taken an oath and after taubah I do the same thing again .do I obliged to pay kaffarah I am in doubt or maybe not in doubt .please help me .
Answered by: Ulamaa ID 04 (London)
Date: 23/09/2021 17:38pm

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الجواب حامداومصليا

There is no Kaffarah for your oaths as you are not certain. You must discard your doubts. If this gets too severe and becomes clinical then you will need to get professional help.

And Allah knows best .

14 Safar 1443/ 22 September 2021

Mufti Qamruzzaman

London, UK