With lots of hope I have come to your page please ask Babar bahi to answer my this question. I have been involved in a physics relationship before marriage for that purpose I used to take contraception pills. I have repented from this sin but suddenly I have realized I took that pills to avoid pregnancy which is equal to taking a life. I have consulted with a lot of scholars but they said taking life is when you aborted a soul after 4 months of pregnancy. But nothing is comforting my heart I feel like only way to calm my heart is to go to jail. Please help I can't eat drink sit & sleep. Please help what should I do please help.
"(And remember that) Allah's acceptance of repentance is only for those who commit evil out of ignorance and then soon repent. It is towards such persons that Allah turns graciously. Allah is All-Knowing, All-Wise." (Sura Nisa 4:17)