I have had an intense verbal argument with my wife over phone and at one stage during the conversation, upon her uttering a provocative statement, I was about to utter the divorce words but didnt as I was in the state of anger. Later during the same conversation, things cooled down and I was calmed down too. After that conversation ended, I was just sitting by myself and for some reason (probably just to see how the words feel coming out of one's mouth), but certainly with no intention whatsoever to actually divorce my wife (or knowing uttering the words in this manner would mean anything), I uttered in a very low voice "my wife's name and that I divorce you" (to myself, with no one arround me). I believe I did it either once or twice. Its just that this happened about two weeks ago and I can hardly remember how many times I uttered this. I am inclined to think that I utterred it twice but there may be a chance that it may be just once and a very very very low probability that I uttered it thrice (I dont think/believe I did it thrice). But I had no intention whatsover of actually divorcing her and I did it all by myself with no one present arround and it was in a very low voice (a person standing may be a few feet away from me could not have heard it).
The questions is, do we stand divorced in this situation?
It may be noted that while we had Nikah but we havent done rukhsati yet, and my wife is not living with me.
May god bless you for the guidance you render.