Anonymous
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Peace be upon you. Every day I keep thinking when I was alone at home, 'Back then, was I thinking about the explicit words of div*** and accidentally uttered them while thinking?', 'If I uttered them, did a sound actually come out or not?', 'Was the sentence directed toward my wife or not? Did I mention "wife" or not? What exactly was the sentence? Was it "Div*** tal** 1" or "Div*** tal** 3" or "I div*** tal** 1" or "I divorce tal** 3" or "I div*** you/my wife/[wife's name] tal** 1 (or 3)"?' With or without wife's being mentioned?
Please help, what should I do? Even though I already went through the court verification process before, I am worried that I did not provide the court with the exact details. What I told the court back then was that I felt the words were explicit. The judge asked about my level of certainty, and my answer was 50-50—sometimes it felt like a sound came out, and sometimes it felt like it was just in my heart. Because of that, it was not validated (it was ruled as not having occurred).
I am worried that this happened simply because my testimony wasn't sufficient to validate it. Until now, I am still trying to dig up my past memories of that moment: was I just thinking while uttering it, or was it without sound? If it was uttered, did I mention my wife or not? If it was uttered, was it tal**1 or 3? I am so worried to the point that I am wondering if I should do the court verification process all over again? Over and over again, I keep pondering whether a sound came out or not, whether it was directed at my wife or not, and if it was uttered, was it tal** 1 or 3? What should I do?
