i am 22 years of old male and my fiance is 18 years of old
Please give me your advice asap as our nikkah is in one month
I have been talking to my fiancée for 3 months after engagement , our nikkah is going to be in start of January. 2 days ago i asked for her social media account, she gave me the accounts but deleted everything, i knew how to check deleted friends and chats so i checked it and find out she had relations with atleast 2 or 3 boys before, she was in sexual activity through online with them and also met them. After telling her that i know everything she was really upset and told me everything truth , she said that she never committed zina but did meet them and had kissed or hugged them(she say nothing more physically happened but I don’t trust her anymore). But she did show her body on online video calls which i think is also called zina (its online but according to my research on islam its zina). I would not be worried in taking decision if i had not done zina myself one time in the past, i committed zina for first time in this year 2022, i am 22 years of age and never before i touched a girl, she left me and I promised allah i will be like before and never do this again, i repented and I thought now i will find a good girl, now my fiancée also begging me to not break the engagement and forgive me once and ill do everything you say , i am stuck between leaving her or forgiving her and marrying her. She said she is virgin and never done anything in physical which is why i think i should forgive her. But at the same time i feel really bad after knowing how bad her relation was to those boys, because i checked the chats and videos she was sending them .
Her parents caught her this year june when she was going to meet one guy and she says after that i was so upset and my parents were so disappointed, i stopped talking to those boys after that . I did zina that’s why i think allah is testing me, should i forgive her for allah and marry her or should i leave her? I feel like i will regret leaving her but at the same time i cry and regret that i choosed her., thanks allah hafiz