Asalamalaykum
Ramadan Mubarak,
I have been suffering from Schizophrenia for 18 years , extreme wawas, Anxiety due to the death of my mother, I also have asthma ADHD and Depression. My tongue is giving me conflicts thoughts against allah, prophet muhammmad and holy quran, islam, muslim and i will go to jannam. It makes me feel sacred. I have never acted on it. I have been going on and off medication as it makes me feel worse and confused. When I die will I able to go to heaven inshallah. I ready 5 times pray, read holy quran allahmudlliah. I live with my elderly father allahmudlliah he is ok allahmudliah. I just need some clarification and how can i get cured completely. Its very disturbing to me focusing on any duties including prays, reading quran watching tv and shopping do things daily around the home as well.
"Truly no one despairs of Allah's Soothing Mercy except those who have no faith. (Surah Yusuf 12:87)
Mental health exist, as Muslims we need to maintain our mental health well being like our physical and spiritual health. As Muslims we submit our will to Our creator and have an obligation to fulfill, we observe Salah, fast, zakat and Hajj.
Allah will guide you and show you away if you believe in Him and trust in Him.
....."And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out, And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent." (Surah Talaq 65:3)
Allah loves you.
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُحِبُّ الْمُتَوَكِّلِينَ
"Surely, Allah loves those who place their trust in Him." (Surah Aal Imran 3:159)
You must accept your fate Qadr and exercise Sabr (patience).
"No calamity befalls the earth or your own selves, but it is (pre-destined) in a Book before We bring it into being, Indeed it is easy for Allah." (Surah Al Hadid 57:22)
"When My servants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path." (Surah Baqarah 2:186)
"If Allah helps you, there is none to overcome you. And if He abandons you, then, who is there to help you after that? In Allah the believers should place their trust." (Aal Imran 3:160)
Reflect on these verses and build a relationship with Allah.
Also, Please get in touch with your local Imam or an upright Muslim counsellor and get professional help.
May Allah give you relief from the hardship of this life and the Hereafter and make your matters easy. Ameen.
