aoa .. i want to ask that i am suffering from anxiety and depression and i have lost myself and my life.. and i am afraid that if i couldn’t recover then i may commit suicide .. so in such condition will it be still considered haraam??
....."And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out, And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent." (Surah Talaq 65:3)
Allah loves you.
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُحِبُّ الْمُتَوَكِّلِينَ
"Surely, Allah loves those who place their trust in Him." (Surah Aal Imran 3:159)
You must accept your fate Qadr and exercise Sabr (patience).
"When My servants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path." (Surah Baqarah 2:186)