Yaaa shaykhhhh!!!! I am in unimaginable pain, and I have been in this condition for 5 years now, in which I have been suffering from acne on my face which is genetic and makes me look very ugly, and ppl's judgements and rude remarks and staring confirm that, it has ruined my entire life, my mental health has severely hit an all time low, and I have been bullied in school ever since I turned 13, causing me several anxiety disorders, severe clinical depression, phycological trauma, and social anxiety disorder, aswell as personality disorder, not to mention the obsessive compulsive disorder with washing my face which has disabled me from carrying out day to day simple tasks. I have tried being patient for soo long, crying nights out of stress, hiding from the public, praying salah, but I have reached my breaking point, and I couldn't bear it anymore, and so it caused me to fall into haram deeds to cope with the constant stress and phycological torture I was experiencing, and it also caused me to abandon my salah, and also I lost my ability to think becuz my acne is always on my mind 24/7 from the time I wake up to the time I sleep, even I sleep in stress, and I am also failing my exams and my relationship with my siblings and parents is horribly affected due to it, even they can't look at me, and I have no friends either as I don't want to go outside, yaa shaykh, I'm losing both worlds, I am just a teenager, but I have wished for death many times. I have asked this question to other sites, but I have never gotten a practical solution, shaykh, I have no one to talk to other than u, ur answer to this question is my LAST hope, I swear by Allah, ur answer can change my life, please yaa shaykh, my this life and akhirah depends on it, please, I will pray for you in tahajjud wallah if you can help me, because nobody before you could. For the sake fo Allah, help me get saved from the fire of Jahannum, because right now, I am headed towards it and I really need help.
....."And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out, And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent." (Surah Talaq 65:3)
Allah loves you.
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُحِبُّ الْمُتَوَكِّلِينَ
"Surely, Allah loves those who place their trust in Him." (Surah Aal Imran 3:159)
You must accept your fate Qadr and exercise Sabr (patience).
"When My servants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path." (Surah Baqarah 2:186)