"Tadees" wrote:
I have been sitting all day in bed having lost all hope of ever getting better and wanting to vent my frustration on someone. I don't see the point of getting up if, for the rest of my life, it is going to take me 30 minutes in the bath & I am going to have constant kufr thoughts. I am, unfortunately, angry with Allah in my mind but have not uttered words to that effect, although in my state of mind I can't be sure. I have questioned his decisions and feel iman has been extracted from me. You need to understand categorically that I have tried for 10 years to ignore the thoughts when making wudhu & ghusl but they are so powerful I am always drawn to act on them. Hence, I rightly or wrongly question whether the diagnosis of waswasa is correct. I have even thought in my mind that (a) there is no such concept or (b) if there is, it is inapplicable to me. I am contemplating suicide
Assalamu alaikum ww
It is truely upsetting to see how shaytaan is getting to you, in one of the most worst possible manner. I seek protection in Allah from shaytaan,the rejected one.
Reading the following book may help.I havent read this particular book but others from the same author.
