Maybe that is your ultimate test!
You've suceeded so far don't let Shaitan let you fail.
On the other side of this, you must believe that Allah has prepared a much better place than this. In fact, you'll probably say to Allah, "If I'd known what was in store for me and my family, I would never have complained - I would've asked for more"
I appreceiate it's not easy - give the istigfaar a go