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Question: Did I do kufr?
Assalaamu alaykum.. I am in a crisis and I beg of my brothers inislam/respected brothers to please help me
I will try to keep my question as brief as possible. May Allah reward you all for your help.

I recently submitted a question regarding some terrible thoughts I had been having but I now need to speak of something so stupid which I did but by Allah I did not intend it as kufr!!

I only became a muslim last year and I have whole faith in Allah as my Lord and islam as my deen.

I did something so awful and I only realised afterwards I may have done something wrong.. I am very ashamed to write this out but please do not judge or wonder why I made the stupid joke..

I was messing around and joking with my brother and I was impersonating a male muslim character and at some point (still in character) I said ''I am a buddhist'' I immediately after thought this was a stupid joke and I am very much sorry over making it. I did not intend it as kufr from myself and did not realise at the time I was wrong ASTAGHFIRULLAH. I feel so upset as I type this as I saw your answer on another question here saying that even if somebody jokes around with statements it is regarded as kufr.. Now what can I do? I felt so content after accepting islam and now have I became a kafir again??? Am I out of Allah ta'ala's mercy?? I did not mean to do this and I am so grieved over this wallahi. It is affecting my life, I cannot focus on my deen properly and I am worried about my actions and thoughts all the time now. I love Allah so much and there I want nothing more than nearness to Him, His pleasure and a home with Him in jannah. These days I cannot feel close to Allah because I am so worried over what I did joking and because of bad thoughts entering my mind.

Please tell me what should I do now? Am I a kafir? I did not intend the joke as kufr at all and it is only after researching that I have really understood the full seriousness over my stupid words.. I did not mean them wallahi.

Please reply soon, I am so worried that I may be outside of Allah's mercy now but He is so beloved to me and now I may not even receive His mercy. I cannot cope with this.

Duas requested please
 
 
Answered by: Ulamaa ID 06 (London)
Date: 15/04/2013 21:43pm

Bismillahir Rahmaanir Raheem
Al Jawaab Billahit-Tawfeeq

Respected sister

May Allah reward and keep your intentions clean.

Making mockery of Allah or His messenger even in jest is Kufr. In this case you state that you were imitating a Muslim male and said "I am a Buddhist" which although isn't the same as mocking Allah and His messenger is still mockery to a certain level on Islam. Sincere repentance is required which you have shown.

You have not denounced Islam. You have not taken another deity and and you have not rejected the noble Prophet (s.a.w) as the final prophet.

Are you out of Allah's mercy?
No you are not. Disturbance of this extent can also be caused by Shaytaan creating doubts. You feel this strongly about Islam, the Lord and His Deen then how can you possibly be out of His mercy? To say so would be neglecting Allah's infinite mercy.

For fighting such thoughts, I can personally recommend regular recitation of Ta'aawuzh and the Kalimah. Regular throughout the day whenever you remember. After Salah a few times, before Salah, while walking, before you sleep etc.


Ta'awwuzh:
A`ūdhu billāhi min ash-shaitāni r-rajīmi

أعوذ بالله من الشيطان الرجيم

Kalimah:
Laa Ilaaha Illallahu Muhammad-ur-Rasoolullah

لَآ اِلٰهَ اِلَّا اللّٰهُ مُحَمَّدٌ رَّسُوْلُ اللّٰهِؕ


And Allah knows best
Maulana Muhammad
 
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