tkinok74
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Hello, I am in a panic situation.
I am married, and from the USA. My husband is Palestinian, and lived in Jordan when we first got married. I wrongly allowed friends and family members to convince me that he only married me to come to the USA, and as a result, I was a very rude and disrespectful wife for the early years of our marriage.
Once he gained US Citizenship, and then he didn’t immediately leave me, I realized my family and friends were wrong about him, and that he did enter the marriage in good faith, and is a very good man. And so I began the work of correcting my behavior and changing my views about him by focusing on the good parts of him, and there are many. Soon, I began to love him and respect him the way I always should have done, and to strive to be the wife that Allah S.W.T. would want me to be. I am not perfect, but I begin every day with that intention, and work the whole day to be better and let all my actions show my love and respect.
The problem, now, he cannot forgive me and he does not trust me that I will not revert back to my old ways when I thought he was only using me to get here. And he wants to leave me. More recently, he told me that he has not found another woman yet, but is looking for a new wife to marry once he leaves and divorces me. I was very enraged by this, and I spat in his face. He now says that is unforgivable, and that he was 60% leaning toward giving our marriage another chance, until I did that. Now he will definitely leave next month and wants to divorce me at that time.
I ask, is there any way for me to redeem myself. Do I even have a right to ask him to continue the marriage with me, or should I accept that I have ruined it, and stop striving toward repairing the marriage. Please advise me, I am completely distraught and ashamed of my actions, and I love my husband, very much.
