Stuck Whether Did I Utter In Loud Voice or Inner Monologue In The Past?

I am writing to seek your guidance regarding a matter that has caused me severe, ongoing mental distress. I have been constantly ruminating and replaying an event from September 22, 2024, every single day. The main issue I face is that my mind keeps forcing me to ask the same questions countless times: a. Was it actually spoken out loud, was it just mouthing without a voice, or was it merely an inner monologue? (Did I actually hear it with my own ears?) b. If I did utter it, was it directed at my wife? Did I explicitly mention her name, use a pronoun like "you," or say "my wife"—or was there no attribution at all? c. If it was indeed uttered, did I say talaq 1 or talaq 3? To provide some important context: in January 2025, I went to the Syariah Court for verification. The process was highly challenging because, due to severe fear and constant rumination, I could not recall or state the exact sentence with any certainty. Initially, the court could not verify anything because I was unable to provide a definitive statement for the judge to review. To allow the session to proceed, I eventually told the judge what I thought I might have said while alone, which was, for example "I div__ce you." When the judge asked about my level of certainty, I replied that it was "50-50"—meaning there was a 50% chance it was uttered out loud, and a 50% chance it was just silent mouthing without sound. Consequently, based on this lack of certainty, the court ruled that no talaq had occurred. Despite this official court ruling, I still feel deeply anxious, obsessive, and scared. My mind keeps tormenting me because I never specified to the judge whether it was talaq 1 or talaq 3 in that hypothetical scenario. This leaves me feeling incredibly uneasy, causing me to replay the event of September 22, 2024, over and over again in a loop. I am very scared and exhausted by these thoughts. Given that the court already ruled that no talaq occurred due to my 50-50 uncertainty, should I accept this as final and ignore these thoughts as waswas (obsessive doubts)? Or am I required to go to the court again to do another verification? I would deeply appreciate your guidance. Jazak'Allah Khairan.