I am mashallah a practising muslim who wears niqaab and am studying for an Alimah course. Mashallah my heart is wholly attached to my salah and quran, and to better myself as a muslim as best I can.
I am very confused about what I should do. I really want to get married to protect my chastity and Imaan and to follow the Sunnah of Rasulullah (s.a.w) I also want to make sure that I marry a pious person who adheres to Sunnah as much as possible. However I have seen two people and somehow I really don't think I can manage to see any more people to marry.
Primarily this is because at univeristy, three years ago I was friends with a non-muslim boy and I completely realise that it was haraam and I see that person as a complete stranger. He wanted to get married to me but I explained that he would need to become a muslim genuinely to marry a muslim woman. I have repented for ever having been friends with him. However in terms of contact with him I have sent him Islamic books, Quran CD, also have emailed him (and other non-muslims friends from uni islamic articles). I recently texted him (my mum encouraged me to find out how he felt) to let him know that although I have the intention to marry as soon as possible I havn't got the inclination to see any more people as I hold strong hope of him becoming a muslim. I don't know if this is Shaytaan whispering to me. He knows my passion for Islam and knows that he would have to be a strong muslim for me to marry him but he thinks it is a good idea I wait for him.
I genuinely would never want to marry him if he wasn't a practising muslim, so that is why I am confused about having hope for him.
Please advise me as to what I should do.
Jazakallah hu Khairan.