Naseeha - Advice

aoa .. i want to ask that i am suffering from anxiety and depression and i have lost myself and my life.. and i am afraid that if i couldn’t recover then i may commit suicide .. so in such condition will it be still considered haraam??

Yaaa shaykhhhh!!!! I am in unimaginable pain, and I have been in this condition for 5 years now, in which I have been suffering from acne on my face which is genetic and makes me look very ugly, and ppl's judgements and rude remarks and staring confirm that, it has ruined my entire life, my mental health has severely hit an all time low, and I have been bullied in school ever since I turned 13, causing me several anxiety disorders, severe clinical depression, phycological trauma, and social anxiety disorder, aswell as personality disorder, not to mention the obsessive compulsive disorder with washing my face which has disabled me from carrying out day to day simple tasks. I have tried being patient for soo long, crying nights out of stress, hiding from the public, praying salah, but I have reached my breaking point, and I couldn't bear it anymore, and so it caused me to fall into haram deeds to cope with the constant stress and phycological torture I was experiencing, and it also caused me to abandon my salah, and also I lost my ability to think becuz my acne is always on my mind 24/7 from the time I wake up to the time I sleep, even I sleep in stress, and I am also failing my exams and my relationship with my siblings and parents is horribly affected due to it, even they can't look at me, and I have no friends either as I don't want to go outside, yaa shaykh, I'm losing both worlds, I am just a teenager, but I have wished for death many times. I have asked this question to other sites, but I have never gotten a practical solution, shaykh, I have no one to talk to other than u, ur answer to this question is my LAST hope, I swear by Allah, ur answer can change my life, please yaa shaykh, my this life and akhirah depends on it, please, I will pray for you in tahajjud wallah if you can help me, because nobody before you could. For the sake fo Allah, help me get saved from the fire of Jahannum, because right now, I am headed towards it and I really need help.

Assalam o Alikum. I suffer from different problems regarding the waswas. Last night i was reciting Holy Quran. Suddenly a shirk thought came in my head. I just closed my eyes. But then I again got a thought that people usually close their eyes to show agreement or permission to something. So now i feel that I've intentionally committed shirk. I am not sure whether i have committed shirk or Shaytan is whispering. In my heart i know that Allah is the only God amd Islam is the true religion. I'm very anxious right now. I'm fearful of doing shirk.

I am really depressed I have only suicidal thoughts no one loves me neither my parents nor my friends no one cares about me it's not recent it is from the beginning I lost my all focus I can't do anything and I can't go to job I just want to end my life please save me from these griefs I am not beautiful no one wants to marry me what should I do

Aslamu 3laikum
I am practicing Islam, Alhamdulilah. But I have a problem the problem is that I feel attracted to Christianity. It bothers me a lot especially when I see a cross of anything related to Christianity. Can you recommend some duas or anything that wil help me. May Allah bless you for helping the ummah