i lost all my iman and im not bothered by it. i commit sin after sin with no regret. i have become a hypocrite. every ayah of the wuran regarding hypocrites relates to me. reading the quran does not increase me in iman. reading the quran actually worsens my condition. i have the same kibr as iblis.all my desire for the afterlife has faded. this is not waswasah.ive bevome jumpy bc im scared of death and the hellfire. i have no pirpose in my living and im just committing sin after sin just chasing pleasure. what can i do about this to be muslim again and to save myself from the fire?
You are still a Muslim. You need to acquire knowledge of Islam to recognize Allah and His Messenger (صلى الله عليه وسلم)
Follow the Sunnah, it will reshape and remould your soul. This will develop Taqwa (fear of Allah) in you. Your soul will be filled with light, you will be safe from sins. You will do righteous deeds with enjoyment and with the pleasure of Allah.
Say, ˹O Prophet,˺ “If you ˹sincerely˺ love Allah, then follow me; Allah will love you and forgive your sins. For Allah is All-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”(Surah Aal Imran 3:31)
Do not be sad and you are not alone, Allah is with you. You will get through this and continue to have hope in Allah.
....."And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out, And will provide for him from where he does not expect. And whoever relies upon Allah - then He is sufficient for him. Indeed, Allah will accomplish His purpose. Allah has already set for everything a [decreed] extent." (Surah Talaq 65:3)
Allah loves you.
إِنَّ اللَّهَ يُحِبُّ الْمُتَوَكِّلِينَ
"Surely, Allah loves those who place their trust in Him." (Surah Aal Imran 3:159)
You must accept your fate Qadr and exercise Sabr (patience).
"No calamity befalls the earth or your own selves, but it is (pre-destined) in a Book before We bring it into being, Indeed it is easy for Allah." (Surah Al Hadid 57:22)
"When My servants ask you about Me, then (tell them that) I am near. I respond to the call of one when he prays to Me; so they should respond to Me, and have faith in Me, so that they may be on the right path." (Surah Baqarah 2:186)
"If Allah helps you, there is none to overcome you. And if He abandons you, then, who is there to help you after that? In Allah the believers should place their trust." (Aal Imran 3:160)
Reflect on these verses and build a relationship with Allah.
