Am i expected to search for a spouse?

Asslamu aleykoum sheikh, Im a 25 year old woman. I have been proposed to twice, once when i was a teenager and once at 23. The former prospect my parents rejected as they thought i was too young and the latter there were many reasons i rejected i was clinically depressed as i haad just recovered from a psychosis and struggling with deen ( very bad time) and i was unable to work. The prospect too wasnt working , police took his papers because he was on student visa in another westrn country and it expired and wanted to settle there.I on the other hand , i already grew up in the west most of my life and i was just starting my career after studies and was more "at an advantage". I felt like i couldnt rely on this person as they would depend on me and long distance is bad to bring him here would take years. From years i have been making dua to get married. This lead to a lot of despair and further depression. Al hamdoulillah im in a much better stage now regarding my relationship with Allah, im closer to him and i feel like i dont have pain that makes me want to distance myself from him. However sometimes things people say around me trigger the feeling that i need to get married quickly and i fall into an extreme negative spiral which leads to me posting online and on apps searching frantically .It either doesnt work out or i need to reject the person always for something too. Some of the things are : old (10 plus years), follow females, im not attracted/not my type etc . I tried to sign up for halal pages but my mahrams refused to support me in chaperoning. Now im wondering does Allah swt expect me to search for a husband? i understand its rizq and Allah decides , however its very difficult for me to remain single. I feel like my self respect has really lowered since searching. I face a lot of heartbreak even if i keep it professional. At times i appear desperate to the oppsite gender perhaps as i have been on these platforms for long, or for talking to them after having a valid reason to reject them so they disrespect me at times. A lot of the times i talk to males that are not good without realizing at first eg. criminal bakground, young men that marry much old women for papers, divorced with children , men who already have wife etc and if if hes single and young and appears well, he just wastes my time and after he meets me he says hes not attracted. Now i have stopped, i post but i dont respond due to emotional exhaustion. I feel bad im commiting sins by talking to opposite gender and want to protect my mental health and relationship with Allah. I tried the halal route . The mosque said they dont provide such service, i asked my mother to tell my dad, she said he doesnt want , i asked married friends even online friends, they say thety dont know anyone, i asked my brothers they refused as well to help. Should i just continue to ask Allah SWT for someone? I dont know if i should keep searching or just give up and continue making dua like these last few years. Please help giving me an answer. I need to feel at peace.